The last couple of days have been nothing but difficult! All I seem to do is cry and cry which my counselor assures me is a good thing. She says that you cannot control how you are feeling and that feeling is NEVER WRONG! I guess it is really difficult for me to imagine myself taking a trip which I know is going to be a trip of a lifetime without the person that I thought I would be taking it with. However, I know that this is God's plan for me - I guess I will just have wait and see what comes of this... but waiting is the hard part. However, if I dont look at it as waiting but as living then I am just continuing on living my life.
A sign that this trip is meant to be is when I went down to the Thai Consulate this afternoon to drop off my Visa application for multiple tourist entries into Thailand (usually $70) I got for free! They say your life is like a wheel (Well I actually think shakespeare used this metaphor in his plays all the time - Thank you TRU) and my wheel was definitely at the bottom a couple of months ago and now I can feel it turning back round. I guess when you are at the bottom you learn to be grateful for all of the people and things in your life you took for granted. More than anything I have learned that there are so many amazing and wonderful people in my life! My family and friends who have constantly been there for me in this difficult time and ALWAYS. But, this time instead of feeling sad that I will be away - all of you can be excited for me that I will be in a place of peace and traquility. A place where personal growth will happen.
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